It's just been one of those days...

Always&Forever

Today is going to be a beautiful day. Why? Because I am going to make it one. I have the power to create my own destiny. Bumps in the road are part of life but I choose my response, I choose my next steps, I choose to be happy, or I choose to be upset. Nobody controls me except me. We have so much power in our own life. So today I am taking control. I am making today a wonderful day.

Watch your thoughts, for they become words. Watch your words, for they become actions.

Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become character.

Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

Relax...Deep Breath...REPEAT.


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.in love with my best friend.

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There are two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other one is as though everything is a miracle.

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Time to Reminisce...

The cuz and me...summer 2005. The summer we were reunited. I love her!

The annual camping trip. Summer 2005.

Night out freshman year!

My grandpa...aka my favorite person in the world. I miss him.

Beach day @ Waikiki freshman year.

Senior trip in Cancun!

What my tattoo is supposed to look like...

Taken right after I got it done, July 2005.

Going for a drive with my Pops.

Never Forget...Best Friends Forever.

 

Whale watch catamaran: Freshman Year

Beautiful Island Park.

Me n' Dirty Dan.

I'm a proud aunty. I love my little Wyatt!

My bestest when she came to visit me in Hawaii.

At DB's December 2007.

My Hero.

Beach night with Ash =]

Drunken nights with the besties.

Homies 4 Life Yo.

Yay for finishing level 3!

Cuzzizzle. May 2008.

My goodbye party @ Christina's...love my Colie and Deegan!

Vegas Trip Summer 2008.

My Garabito girls!

The places we have been, the things we have done, the pain we have endured, the smiles we have smiled, the tears we have cried, the friends we have loved, the fights we have fought, the hills we have climbed, the miles we have walked, the songs we have sang, the love we have shared...

make us who we are. I am so thankful for all the wonderful people in my life and I always want to remember that I have been blessed with an amazing life. I love my family and I love my friends. Thank you all for everything you have done for me and for the good times we have shared.

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring

I really felt like writing tonight so I sat down...opened up the screen...and just stared. I don't even know what to say. I have so many thing running through my mind right now that unless I have something to guide me, I'm blank. School is crazy, I love it and hate it all at the same time. And as much as I am ready to graduate, I'm also not. My to do list for this week is huge, I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed, and all I really want is ONE day off, not two or three...just one will be fine. I want to wake up to no alarm clock, spend the morning at Ko'olina and just relax the day away...WITHOUT homework and epi paper and studying and EKG's and complex care and clinical worksheets and CT2 and home visits and everything else. Sounds nice...maybe next month!

 I realized today that for the first time in 7 years, Brett has not come into my mind every single day. That scares me. I am so afraid of forgetting. And I know I never will but I want to think of him every day and feel him with me. I gave my necklace with Brett's picture on it to Logan before he left for deployment. He wears him around his neck every single day and I know Brett is keeping him safe. Maybe that's why I haven't felt him as much lately, because he is taking care of my other half....making sure he comes home safe to me.

I hope that someday I will understand life a little better...sometimes I just don't get it. Maybe we aren't supposed to get it. I don't know.

One more day One more time  One more sunset, maybe Id be satisfied But then again I know what it would do...Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

You'll Always Be My Shooting Star

Afraid to remember...but terrified to forget. I love him, I miss him. He was my best friend.

If you hear this

Wherever you are
Just know I need you here
I need you near me now
You were brighter than the pale white moon
Reflected in your eyes
So I guess it's no surprise
I can't forget you
No matter what I do

I will always carry you
In my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change

I just need to slow down for awhile
I'm missing your warm smile and the way you used to say
Stay with me till the daylight breaks
No matter what it takes
Just say you'll stay
Just say you'll stay

I will always carry you
In my heart
You'll always be my shooting star
Autumn days will fade away
But memories will always stay the same
I'm hoping you will never change
Don't ever change.
Don't ever fade away...